My last few articles since the February New Moon have been around the vibration of Ascension. The articles were called Experiencing Ascension and Untangling Ascension.
As it turns out, there are some more themes that I wanted to delve into more. To maintain a reasonable reading length, this article, Part 2, just like Part 1 is made up of mini-pieces around this larger theme of Experiencing Ascension - coz, there’s just so much to talk about!
Some of these topics came from misconceptions that I had to navigate and realizations I came to. I share these now and in this way because I was able to move through them by being shown my blind-spots in loving ways. This allowed me to unhook from what was limiting me from beyond my knowing and sight.
Your experience and understanding may be entirely different.
And that is a beautiful thing.
What Shifts Can Feel Like
When we start to walk in the world from a shifted consciousness, our past and historical connections to heavy memories, toxic people and shadowy places can lighten.
Our sense of self and worth, our voice and our will-force can come to life in a new way. We can untether from past burdens, griefs and heaviness when we accept our darker parts.
Each of these can feel like a monumental journey.
When these shifts happen, we begin to move away from experiencing the world as solely material and 3-dimensional, and open to a multi-dimensional, emotive and quantum experience.
This is a dimensional shift.
Have you ever moved houses and woken up in the middle of the night, wondering where you are?
Maybe you look for dishes in the cabinets that held these items based on your memory of the previous house, rather than where they are now.
Or you walk into the closet, thinking it’s the bathroom.
Or you stub your toe every night before bed, because you keep forgetting the new spacial layout?
We may roll our eyes and laugh at ourselves for our silliness.
But what has happened is that we, and all our things and people have shifted their positions. Even though all our stuff is in this new house physically, on an energetic and emotional level we are still unwinding from the past house and settling into the new one. It is a process.
This is why sometimes, it takes people a whole month to feel like their new house is a home. There is a readjustment period.
In a way, dimensional shifts are a little like shifting houses, only exponentially larger. They are also well beyond physical material reality.
Unlike moving a house that has an end - like when the last box is unpacked or when your internet is hooked up - dimensional shifts don’t really end. Ever.
They are layered and aligned to universal change, which is constant.
This is what happens when we start to live our lives illuminated by our Realizations.
We just start to live differently, in a state of constant shifting. We move back and forth while also knowing that that we are grounded, present and needed in the reality which we walk in. It births a new way of living, a shift within and a change from what we held as true.
This can feel awesome and liberating to us once we are through it, as we have faced our demons and fears.
It may also bring up weirdness and awkwardness when interacting with people around us, who are in their own experience of reality, witnessing us.
It can feel like a fight or the constant need to justify our actions, inactions and choices. It can also feel like alienation and isolation, if we feel we are misunderstood and unheard. Alternatively, we may no longer understand or find resonance with the words and actions of our people.
While all this can be socially and emotionally challenging, it is as much part of the process as our deep inner work. This is because, this showing up in the outer world after our inward descent is an essential arc of the journey. This arc is akin to the return home, after our respective Hero(ine’s) Journey.
Sometimes, we cannot immediately return to our perceived home. Our journey may take us towards new family, new communities, new work and new people.
As we learn to embrace the pain and relief of this, we also learn to Trust in the movements that we cannot see, that occur beyond our knowing. This is part of the journey as well.
Ascension and Manifesting
One of the celebrated joys of a Realized Life is that we become Masters and Creators of our Life and Destiny.
Who wouldn’t want that?
My experience with this is that it is true, but not in the way I thought.
When we want something, we seek and desire it. Sometimes it becomes our goal or our North star.
We make vision boards, work really hard on our law of attraction practice and we may pray for the thing to come into our life. So, imagine the annoyance when day after day, year after year, the thing eludes us.
One of my traps here was that I was creating: want and desire.
I would visualize or feel what I wanted, and even though my words would sound confident, my emotional and feeling had a sense of longing.
Energy and consciousness, as I found, were far more reactive to emotional truths than the words we tell ourself.
So, I had to work with and through my sense of lack and absence that was creating the longing and this idea that I would be happier once the thing I wanted came into my life.
Here, we also get to see the difference between our true Heart or Soul’s desire and desires that stem from personality or ego.
Ascension and Bliss
We may hold the false notion of Ecstatic Living and Bliss in terms of ‘always being happy’ and being surrounded by peace, love, joy and serenity.
But that is not true; at least it hasn’t been for me.
Uncovering moments of Peace and Bliss, has felt more like Remembering that my body is a vessel and antenna for cosmic and material motion. That the Universe flows into and through me as much as I allow in a moment. That my experiences of pain or suffering are just that - an experience. And it flows as well, like everything else.
The quality of our experience is up to us.
The choice lives in our next breath - how we choose to take it. How deeply in our body we allow it. How quickly we want to jump to the next thing. How fully we feel our Self in the present moment.
I used to hold the notion that Peace and Bliss was a permanent space, and I had wanted to never feel hurt or pain again. I held this as a core desire on my Spirit-walk for a long time before I was ready to face it. I would still feel peaceful and happy in moments, but it was tentative, as I knew something would come along and knock me away from this feeling. Not wanting to feel helpless and sad, I would cling to ideas os peace and positivity. But this kept me in fear of pain and discomfort. And I couldn’t find a way past it, until I faced it.
I understand now that it is a common misconception and sometimes we are led by it.
In my case, it was just fear that wore the mask of peace and positivity.
I explore this particular topic in this piece
It was not true Peace.
Now, I know the difference.
Very true, Infact the example of change of house is something that I’ve faced twice already in the last 5 years. However, I’ve found peace in solitude & prayer; I realise now, that what will happen would be the best for me & it seems to work for me 😇